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What Does Anxiety Really Feel Like?

Beverley Stewart • September 24, 2023

What Does Anxiety Really Feel Like?

For those that live with anxiety, it can be difficult to explain to others what it feels like. Also, the shame that often accompanies anxiety can make people reluctant to share their experience with other people. There is a fear that we’ll be perceived as damaged and weak, and that just exacerbates the anxiety. So, what does anxiety really feel like?


Anxiety is a mixture of physical sensations, thoughts, emotions, and behaviours that we seem to have no control over. They can show up without warning, paralyze us and prevent us from living the life we want to. Each person’s experience is different but there are some common themes. Below are some quotes from people about how anxiety can make them feel.



My Fault


“I felt like I was under a darkness. A cloud was around me and everything felt gray and there was a coldness in the world. I felt heavy in my heart. I felt hopeless and helpless. My thoughts told me I didn’t deserve life. My thoughts directed their bitterness towards me. Told me I was not good enough; I’d made catastrophic errors, and everything was my fault. A stream of negative judgements were flung at me – by me. I judged myself harshly and took the blame for everything that would happen. I couldn’t escape this negativity. The more I tried, the more the thoughts grew. I told myself to think happy thoughts, but that felt ridiculous. The hopelessness had engulfed me and I was scared.”





My Disguise


“From the outside people think I’m ok. I dress well, have a career, friends and a family. But no one knows the demons that live inside me. These are the most powerful enemies – the ones you can’t see. And that makes it even harder. No one understands what it’s like to be me. People think if you can’t see it – it’s not there.   I smile, grin, and bear it because no one likes talking about the bad stuff - like the feeling that all the cells in my body are racing, like my heart beat and my breathing are out of control – but no one else knows. There can be buzzing in my ears, I don’t even realise I’m grinding my teeth and cracking my knuckles, I’m fidgeting and tapping, and constantly playing with my jewelry. My leg shakes when I’m sitting, and the speed increases the more anxious I get. 


I’ll avoid any eye contact because I’m scared I can’t find the right words to speak. My voice will be filled with insecurity, so I try to avoid conversation, hoping you won’t find out how tortured I am inside. Hoping you won’t see through my disguise.”



Not Me


“I just don’t feel like me.  I feel …. blank and distant, and I worry that I look stupid. I feel disconnected from everyone and everything around me.  I feel disconnected from me, like I’m on the outside.   I just can’t seem to get back into what’s happening around me.  It scares me. Where did I go?” 



Guilty Sentence


“When I do something wrong, I don’t just feel guilty.  I feel like I’m the worst person in the world, no in the UNIVERSE!  People just don’t understand that.  And you’re mistakes can’t be undone – they’re forever!  So, I can’t make mistakes.  That’s really tough to deal with every day.”



                                                                                                           
          My Body


“All of a sudden it was like something sunk in my chest.  I could feel my heart start racing and I couldn’t catch my breath.  I had chest pains and they got tighter and tighter.  I could feel my shoulders get tight and my throat closed up.  My palms were sweaty and I could feel my shirt was wet with sweat.  I felt like I was having a heart attack. Sometimes these feelings come on quickly and then go away.  Sometimes I have them for hours, sometimes days.  I think I’m dying, but I cant tell anyone.”  (Click here to read "How Does Anxiety Affects the Body")




Bad Brain


“I describe anxiety as a brain fog that clouds my thoughts, but sometimes it’s like an explosion of thoughts.  Sometimes I can be in the middle of a conversation, and I feel this blankness come over me, and I feel my expression go blank, and I’m just not responding anymore.   It’s like there’s just a crater in my head where my brain used to be.  I get really frustrated.  And the more I struggle against it, the more my thoughts run away from me. Or other times there are just so many thoughts racing through that I can’t focus on one, I can’t focus on anything.  I know I’m supposed to dip into my therapy tool bag and try some grounding technique and some deep breathing, go home and journal what’s happened, improve my diet, get a good night’s sleep – but all these things can feel impossible when you’ve lost your brain. Thoughts escape me and so I avoid socializing entirely now, just incase others have to deal with my empty head.”  


A Stalker


“I always feel like someone or something is watching me constantly every second of every day. Even in class as a kid, if someone looked slightly in my direction, I felt like they have their eyes on me and are judging me constantly. I can’t relax.”



The Fear


“I’m scared. All the time. I’m scared something bad is going to happen. I’m scared someone’s going to get hurt. I’m scared I’m going to die. I know it’s not rational, but there are all these thoughts in my head. It’s like they rise up and I can’t stop them. I’m scared and I don’t know what to do.”


Car Crash


“You know that feeling when you nearly have a car accident? The kind of panic you experience for a second when you thought you were going to smash into someone. That’s how I feel like most of the time. This constant state panic you get after you just missed smashing your car.”



Practicing


“I feel uncomfortable around anyone, even my family and I feel like I have to pretend. I get nervous about everything, even going out to the street. I overthink EVERYTHING and in case I have to interact with someone I practice for hours so I don’t mess up.”



No Reason


“I’m feeling all these feelings at once – and for no reason. There’s no problem, no life or death situation to make me feel like this. And that makes me feel crazy. Some days are better, some days are worse. But it’s day after day, and I wonder if my days will all be like this. I don’t want to be like this.”


(Click here to read "Why Does Anxiety Happen")




Keeping Secrets


“And after we share it [our anxiety experience] with someone...... The people around us only say "you’re being overdramatic, anxiety is not real, you’re making excuses". And then we stop sharing these thoughts, and cry alone when no one is looking. But it hurts, it hurts. Not being able to sleep even when I’m super sleepy... Not being able to concentrate when trying to work hard. It almost feels like I’m trapped and my friends and family would always say “your fine there’s nothing to worry about” or “you don’t need to cry or stress you’ll be fine”.  I’m not fine, but I don’t tell anyone anymore.”


Can’t Win


“Having lots of free time to myself just made me feel closed off from the world. I start to overthink things. The alternative is being with people but then I begin to hyperventilate cause I feel that I’m suddenly the center of attention. I don’t like it when people are all around me. There’s just so many more things I go through every day that I have to cope with and sometimes I just feel utterly useless.  When outside I look like a normal person, and it makes my parents think I’m just being over dramatic and over thinking things. They don’t get it.”



Can’t Think – Can’t Speak


“The words don’t come, and my thoughts are all over the place – they’re racing. And I’m not sure why? What just happened? Why is this happening? I can’t stop worrying about things. And I think if I do stop worrying – bad things will happen! I’m sure of it! I know everyone can see that there’s something wrong with me. What are they thinking about me? If anyone laughs, I think they’re laughing at me.”


In The End


Anxiety can feel like a monster that’s out of control. It’s unpredictable and it brings chaos. It inhibits normal functioning and, to make it worse, no one understands what you’re going through.  Of course, it’s different for everyone. It can range from agitation and worry, to paralysis and fear of your own impending death. For those who have been lucky enough to live anxiety free, hopefully you’ll now know a little more about what 3.3million Australians go through daily.


Having chronic anxiety is not a character flaw or a sign of weakness. It’s experienced by everyday people like you and me, and your family and friends. It’s something that’s difficult to comprehend by those experiencing it. It’s unpredictable and overwhelming. But it’s also something that can be worked on to make life more normal. You can gain some effective tools for managing anxiety, and you can also get help in exploring what’s buried deep that perpetuates it.  Sometimes you need to make peace with the monster.


These stories were intended to increase your awareness about what anxiety feels like, and for those experiencing anxiety – hopefully, you feel less alone.  Remember to be kind to yourself and each other – it WILL help. 



To find out more about Anxiety Counselling click here, or go to Contact Page to make an enquiry



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